So day 1 was a tough day to binge because I had school from 9:30-3:50. On days that I'm super busy I typically have to force myself to eat through out the day.
So I force fed myself half a bagel in the morning, force fed myself taco bell at lunch (ate a chalupa and a half) then for dinner we ordered pizza we I will say I had absolutely no problem eating because of how delicious it was.
I won't go into details but it was the absolute best pizza in this city.
I will definitely say that as I had no eaten fast food in so long that I smelled by the end of my second class. I don't know if it was noticeable to others but I pretty much wanted to hide under the lab table
Day 2 was easier to binge as I only had a morning class.
Started the day with a full bagel, ate a left over slice of pizza for lunch (it was eggplant pizza), and then finished the night with a checkers burger, a large order of fries and 2 of their apple pies.
The gross smell continued. I felt completely disgusting, there just are no words for how gross I felt.
My hair felt especially greasy, my underarms were just *gag* and just the general feeling was icky.
Even breathing felt a little difficult, I have not has fast food in about a year and even then I would order the lightest thing on the menu.
A few hours after checkers, I force fed myself a slice of chocolate cake simply because carbs and sugar are a tough pass for me and I wanted to be able to say I had some the night before, in order to ease the loss of it.
I probably sound like I am whining....I hope not. I just wanted to document this for if I should ever be thinking of cheating. Remember the gross disgusting feeling!
Maybe tonight I'll do a post for how I got to this weight as to explain how someone who is heavier than average can feel so grossed out by fast food. Fast food did not get me here, sugar and carbs did! But more on that later
I didn't weight myself on these two days simple because I was without a scale, but as of late at day 2 I was able to get a high quality scale from my mother until mine is delivered tomorrow.
Oh! The injections! The needle is small and it stings a little bit but it's nothing serious. The first day didn't hurt at all but the second day I definitely felt it. I think it's more the idea of the injection. It's a pretty thin needle (not at all like the B12 needle but thats in the next post)
Now onto a post about day 3 so far.
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